Trying To Motivate Myself (11/25/2012)

I've been brain-storming tonight, trying to think of a way to motivate myself. 

I just returned from Thanksgiving break.  I haven't played in 6 nights and still have no desire to grind.  I literally forced myself to come back to AC area.  My poker situation is somewhat code-red at the moment.  I don't remember the last time I've taken off so long with no desire to return to the grind.  It's definitely not a good time.  It seems the last big trip and simultaneous down swing has really took something out of me.

Also the prospect of returning to mid-stakes after playing high stakes for the past 4.5 months is humbling, but I still think it’s necessary at this time.

I wanted to write out some daily targets out for the upcoming week, since I feel very unmotivated and still somewhat down in general.  I’m trying to think of something that would motivate me at this time.  Getting laid by a hot girl would be nice (one thing I miss about Asia), that’s about all I can think of, or maybe having a night out getting drunk with friends.  Sounds like a club night?  So here’s the deal.  If I hit all of my targets for the upcoming week I can take a reward of a full blowout club night redeemable at any time.  Yes anytime, that includes Friday, Saturday, or whenever. 

Then again I think it’s fine to take a club night per week in general (if I'm in the mood), but not more than one.  So yeah this would be an extra party night for hitting my targets.

Actually, I'm having trouble thinking about a reward I would actually want and value?  The club night would be cool, but I'm not sure I should be restricting myself of that in general.  Ok here is the reward: a "baglife token".  this token can be redeemed for things such as:

- extra club night

- concert ticket

- vacation night

- vandalize something

-whore house

- unnecessary shopping purchase

These are just a few examples of the great rewards I can earn redeeming baglife tokens.

So these earned tokens will allow me to treat myself in a position where I would have previously said: "no you shouldn't you should really stay focused for reason X."

The tokens are my only escape!

Yes I actually think this idea has potential.  So if I hit all my targets for a week I get one baglife token.

I'm going to actually update the token hunt weekly.  I created a separate section on this website for this:

Motivation Project (Baglife Tokens)

This way if you think it's a really stupid idea and don't give a shit that's fine you don't have to follow it.  I also want to keep it categorized separately since I plan to be updating this at least twice per week.  The separate section will keep the main journal from getting flooded.

Here are my targets for the upcoming week

-bag