Snow, Corporate, and Online Poker (2.5.2010)

A huge snow storm is apparently looming.  I stepped outside this morning and remember picking up the scent of fear in the air.  Seems the entire city has pretty much already shut down.  The general populous has been reduced to a frightful state of panic.  Yet a single snow-flake has yet to fall.  I guess people fear what they can’t control.  Add that one unpredictable element into an equation and people go shit-bat crazy.  This sort of reminds me of shark attacks.  You’re about a million times more likely to drown at the hands of your own stupidity, but that sort of thing is “preventable”.  What kind of idiot would drown right?  But an abomination of a shark with rows of razor-sharp teeth just killed someone who was swimming in the predator's natural habitat?   "FUCK THAT.  Let’s take arms and murder every shark in a THOUSAND MILE RADIUS.  MAN IS GREATER THAN SHARK."  It’s a related concept to me.  Humans tend to be more afraid of factors that are out of their control.  A shark attack is out of their control so they seek to vanquish the problem, which in actuality isn't even an issue.  And when people have no way of controling they often go a little crazy.

I decided to go out last night.  It was the first time I went out in almost two weeks.  I had some fun, but it was not all that great.  I pulled two numbers that I will definitely never call, the usual.  I’m at work running on 4 hours or whatever.  In the upcoming month or so I might go out more during the week sometimes, and less during the weekend.  I’ve decided that I’d rather screw up my work schedule then mess up the limited free time I have on the weekends.  I’m pretty sure I could do this job high on crack while tripping acid anyways.  Not that I have ever done either of those things; just saying.  Most of the time as long as I show up it’s fine.  Things might pick up some in the next few weeks with some training, but I could still go out and get hammered one weeknight and be fine.

It really is a hopeless situation with my job right now.  There’s no point in getting upset.  It is what it is.  Even if my contract isn’t renewed in a few months I could grab unemployment during a transition period.  That could actually work out quite well for a month or two as I played cards (though it’s never that easy).  My 9-5 is just a pay-check now.  This is liberating because I think “well I don’t care as much, it’s just a check”.  But deep down I have always cared.  I really gave my soul to corporate the last two years.  I started off the first year and a half really giving everything I had.  I wanted to be successful here, but ultimately there will be almost nothing to show for my efforts.  Just a small bankroll made up of some “blood money”.  It’s still hard for me to go to work and break off to a point where I don’t care in anyway; I really wish I could.  But shit still bothers me.

I will go on insisting that they can do whatever they want to try to further fuck me over; go for it.  Doesn’t and shouldn’t matter to me anymore.  My future is not here, I KNOW THIS.  I think things are even worse with my boss now since I had a discussion a few months ago moving out of state unless there were some reasonable opportunities that would be developing damn soon.  So basically instead of trying to get me more involved and retaining me she has just taken the strategy of cutting me off more.  The past month the best work has been assigned to someone who has showed up 2 hours late pretty much every day the past half a year.  I was in line to receive some training that would boast my resume, but that was awarded to someone else first because my direct boss either has something personal against me or thinks I’m going to quit soon so it doesn’t matter.  I will still get the training in a few weeks, but I had to go out of my way and fight for it myself (just to have it on my resume).  I know my best bet is to march on like a soldier and get to a point where nothing bothers me.  In a way it serves me right; I screwed my corporate situation up more by being honest.   I know it’s beyond stupid to be honest around here.  I just gave the boss time to stab me in the back preemptively.  It's the same reason why I knew I should never tell my boss if I was interviewing.  I actually wrote about this back in September months ago in a sign it's time to leave corporate:

"You have realized you should never tell your current boss when interviewing internally.

It is wise to remove this logic from your thought process:

“I’m going to tell my boss I am accepting an internal interview. I think it's important I remain honest and respectful. Also, I won’t have any guilt. Besides, maybe she will be more inclined to offer me a promotion since other parties are obviously expressing strong interest, which further proves my value.”

In reality:

It is beyond idiotic to tell a current boss you’re accepting an internal interview. This only gives them time to network and stab your back; ruining your chances of ever progressing. Furthermore, don’t fool yourself into thinking you should be respectful and honest; remember that NOBODY else around you is. Getting others in corporate to appreciate those values would be like sharing empathy with an ant. Do you think the ant has the capacity to appreciate your empathy? Also, nobody is going to feel pressured to give you a promotion in response to another internal manager showing interest. It is much easier to contact the other manger first and simply work out a “block deal" before your interview even begins."

And I found where I explained the block deal:

"Additionally, your current manager can put a “block” on you as a last resort. This means your current boss will contact the manager hiring for the new position (manager A). They will agree to deny you the position, so your current manager can continue to suck you for everything you’re worth. In return your current manager will return the favor to the manager A at a later time."

Though I don’t completely regret the decision to reveal that I was thinking about moving out of state.  I wanted to make sure it wouldn’t be possible to work remotely for a few months.  It could have been a good option.

I want to play a lot of online poker this weekend.  I should be able to play unless a blizzard knocks out my power.  I need to regroup and stick to my strategy.  I also want to make a huge commitment to online poker during the upcoming months.  I should build my online roll to a point where I can at least make a decent rate if I want to play online hourly to supplement income.  It’s also a good idea to stay in strong playing shape.  It would be nice to be in Vegas playing live, but I should also have something online I can work off of.  It’s important to have both worlds eventually; a balance.  I need to step up my online volume and discipline.  When I’m online I also don’t go out and spend money.  Even if I lose an online session it’s taking off from a bankroll I built up over a long time.  However, if I want to get more serious online I may have to put more money in.  Sure you can grind a bankroll up from nothing.  But it’s always an issue of time to me.  I have to maximize the value of my time.  Sure you can spend hundreds of hours and turn $50 into a thousand.  Shame not everyone has 100’s of hours.  This is probably a reason why I am not as winning as I should be online.  Maybe subconsciously rush and try to make things happen sometimes. 

Anyways I’m probably going to leave work once it starts snowing.  Most people didn’t even come in today.  The thought of getting stuck in this shitty city is dreadful.  My next post will probably be on a horseshit unlucky online session.  Or the apocalypse blizzard that ruined humanity; something fun you know?

Cheers,

-bag

Tides Turn Fast (What A Nightmare)

Last night I had an absolute nightmare session.  I began 4 tabling short stack and took around 4 beats in a 20 minute span (for my entire stack each time).  I ended up down -$400.  Absolutely devastating.  I'm angry with myself because my discipline was pathetic.  I targeted a bad player and re-bought $80 to go after him.  I lost that entire stack as he rivered a 2 outer against my overpair.  At this point I buy in around $180 to go after him.

The clue-less clown ends up rivering me two more times during the session to absolutely fuck my session.  So much for everything I built up over the weekend.  I guess overall I'm still up $400 in this format, but wow.  It's scary how bad my discipline really was last night.  The gambler came out in me; the logic being; "my goal is to get the most money in with the best situation".  I knew this guy represented an extremely good situation that I could exploit (in theory, about 90% of the time).  But I got sucked out three times so that's poker.  I don't ever remember being so angry and disgusted with poker.

I'm not going to run on and post 8 suck-out hands, I will spare you that.  And I knew I was risking it by buying in more than a short-stack to go after a certain situation.  It's pointless going "I would have, should have, or could have".  Going forward it's either stick to a strictly low-stack strategy, or deposit a few thousand online so I can go after idiots like this and be able to take getting rivered 3 times in the span of an hour for enormous pots.  Oh right that's why I'm planning to move to Vegas so I have everything LIVE.  Burn in hell Poker Stars.  Or I could keep buying in to much money and go broke with my online bankroll; that's fun as well.

Obviously not playing tonight.  Decided I deserve the torture of working out even know I only got 4 hours of sleep.  Serves me right.  Hope everyone else is having a better week.

-bag

2/1/2010 (Solid Weekend)

Something just happened at my job that pissed me off which freed up some time to put together the framework of this post.  What better time to WRITE AN ENTRY.  Since I have to stick to my rule (not doing any real work for an hour when something of corporate origin angers me) I might as well give some weekend updates.

I played 19 more hours total this weekend.  I cleared the bonus in time and achieved gold-star.  Overall I was also up +$180 on the tables (in addition to the bonus).  So I'll just include the cleared bonus in my overall profit to make myself feel good and say up +$480 for the 20 hours.

Some thoughts below:

Thinking about depositing on Full Tilt.

I've done some research online with regards to the loosest sites for cash games.  Full Tilt seems to have much better ring games.  I'm seriously considering a deposit on Full Tilt in the next month or so.  It feels so much better when you're grinding away with a bonus on your side.  The problem is I would have to play very low stacks to clear the bonus.  Maybe if I deposited $600 I could short-stack 50NL or something.  Also I've said it before Stars is a fucking nitfest.  I have no idea how to players grind out 200NL playing 14 tables at once and make any kind of worth-while profit on that site.  I guess it's easier when you have the stack to steal from the nit-bags, and jack the living hell out of the few fundamentally flawed.

Sticking to Short-stacking 200 NL.

I am really liking the format so far and  I'm happy with my strategy.  With the bonus included I'm up over $800 so far.  And there is no way I would have achieved that bonus in time if it wasn't for 200NL.  This is a crazy high swing in a rather short time.  Though my two biggest sessions involved doubling up at least once and using the stack to target a bad player.

I think some of my strengths at short-stacking 200NL include table selection, quickly profiling weak opponents, and a solid TAG strategy.  I think a weakness is not having extensive knowledge on what the top short-stack NL grinders are specifically doing in every respect (though I have a general idea).  I think some additional research could take care of this.  I also think a weakness is being to tight at times.  But this is a fine line.  My bankroll is already small (now $2500) for these limits, and being tight cuts back on the bankroll fluctuations.

Example of Being Tight (Weakness).

If I'm confident I have someone at the time I need to get all in with the $40 obviously.

However, If I double up and that table isn't profitable enough I need to GET THE HELL OUT.  This is why short-stacking regulars hit and run.  They don't shift styles.  They don't want to out-skill opponents playing real poker; they are PUSH-BOTS.  I am striving to be a hybrid between the push-bot and the "real poker player".

If I double up and a table isn't profitable enough I need to get the hell out.  There is no reason to risk an $80 stack vs a regular that has played over 2 million hands.  At this point my doubled up short-stack becomes a disadvantage.  Last night I lost a pot that put me down for a 2 hour session.  I doubled up earlier and my stack was around $95.  I raised to $6 pre flop with JJ and a solid regulare behind me elected to call.  We are now head-ups up and the flop comes all low cards.  I lead out betting $8 to a $15 pot and he CALLS.  TURN comes queen.  I lead out $14 more he CALLS.  River comes another blank.

Now what?

CHECK you dumb-ass!  He's already shown his strength the last two rounds.  Pray he checks down.  If he makes an average sized bet in comparison to the pot you can CALL.  If the bet is to high for your liking throw the bitch away.

Instead I bet $14 (Thinking maybe he hasn't showed strength enough and I've been in control on the flop and turn).

He re-raises all in and I FOLD.  It would have been 40-something more dollars to call.

With $40 I would have been all in with this hand and he shows down no matter what.  I could even get close to all in on the flop with over-pair JJ (or even if the flop has something like a queen I can still get all in and be profitable in the long run since he's going to miss more times than not). 

This is the problem with doubling up and sticking around with a bigger stack.  It's so tempting because I like to try to work my way up from nothing and play "real poker" with terrible players.  If I didn't play this way I wouldn't have won some of the biggest pots during the last week.  One of my pots was a full $140 doubled up to $280 even though I only started the table with $40.  But if the terrible players aren't there it's time to get the hell out.  If I double up and stick around I need to make damn sure I focus that stack on a very weak player and get in the best situation.  Even if I double up, go super tight, and wait for a hand I can still be playing unprofitably against skilled regulars because situations like the JJ hand discussed above will often arise.

Not sure if I'm going to play tonight.  I would like to crush a nap and play a few hours.  But if a friend stops over I might have to cancel out the session tonight.  It's going to be a damn long week ahead like usual.....

Cheers,

-bag

1/30/2010 (Rambling and Some Online Updates)

I played poker until 6:30 a.m last night online.  I woke up around 2:30 p.m to find a few inches of snow outside.  It’s still coming down somewhat steady.  I checked the weather a day ago and this was not called for.  Interesting because I checked the map a few minutes ago and the storm seems to have blanketed all of Maryland.  This isn’t a random cloud that happened to pass through.  Sometimes I think I could predict the weather almost as accurately as forecasters by using three simple steps:

Step 1:  Setting up a dartboard.

Step 2:  Sectioning off the board into reasonable forecasts for each lane.

Step 3:  Launching a dart from 50 feet away to make a weather prediction for the upcoming day.

Curios by nature I did a google image search for "weather forecast dartboard" and actually found something.  Looks like the one below was used for the Christmas day forecast somewhere.  I guess I'm not the first to come up with this brilliant idea of using a dartboard to predict weather:

I can’t think of another profession where you can be so horribly incorrect with such stunning frequency, yet get away with it.  Maybe a stock market broker?

About a week ago I realized I needed to clear a $300 bonus on PokerStars by 2/5/2010.  I’ve been vigorously working to clear it in time during past week.  I’ve played 20 hours in the past 4 days, which is a decent volume considering I had a 9-5 job to deal with as well.

I decided to short stack 200NL to clear the bonus.  It was pretty much my only shot at accumulating 2,500 FPP so quickly.  The strategy has been working out well so far.  Right now I’m up +$300 in the 20 hours played.  Last night was by far my most frustrating session, but I still ended up break even in 6.5 hours.  I took 3 horrendous beats in a very short time frame which sent me tilting like a psycho.  Man the beats online are tough.  I never have a problem controlling myself live.  But when a series of crazy suck outs all happen nearly simultaneously on different tables online it’s hard not to go ape-shit nuts.  I still have to work on my online poker discipline.

As for short stacking 200NL I have generally been buying into two tables at $40 each to start.  Though last night I was four tabling by the end.  Sometimes when I double up once or twice I will leave the money on and go after bad players with my bigger stack.  This is risky business, but I’ve had some decent success hunting certain players.  I’ve been extremely focused on table selection and who exactly I am trying to go after on different tables.  I’m pleased with the strategy so far.  I just think it’s important to tread extremely carefully when I double or triple up my original $40 and decide to leave the full $120 or whatever on the table.  All it takes is one bad beat here to have a massive impact on my bankroll.

My roll is $2,049 right now, but I’m only 450FPP away from clearing a $300 bonus.  I want to stick with short stacking 200NL for a while (even after I clear it).  It’s going well and I’ve been happy with my play.  Even if I play break even, the other players will make it worth my while if I select the correct table.  Around 5a.m-6a.m last night some extremely crazy games broke out which boasted my FPP total nicely. 

I still think PokerStars is WAY TO FRIGGIN TIGHT.  It’s a constant chore to find cash games that are worth your time.  After I clear the bonus I’m thinking about making a deposit on Full Tilt Poker and checking out what they have to offer.  Seems you can get a free 3 month subscription to CardRunners and Hold Em Manager for free if you simply deposit and clear a $100 in bonus on Full Tilt.

I haven’t gone out since I got back from Atlantic City and I’m trying to keep focus.  I need to keep focusing on poker, and I need to really cut back going out and wasting money (as dreadful as that may sound).  I’ll probably end up playing pretty much all of tonight as well (if things are going well).    I’m a tennis fan and the Australian Open final starts live at 3:30 a.m Sunday morning (Eastern Time).  I’m going to try to stay up and play poker through the start and end of that match.  That would be pretty ballin’.

Off to the tables for me.

Focus focus focus……

Atlantic City Trip and Thoughts

Friday night I was reminded by a good friend that it was her bachelorette party in Atlantic City the next day.  She is only 23 and getting married.  I guess another one bites the dust.  She invited me a while ago, but I had completely forgotten.  Well I decided to go last minute and leave Saturday morning.  It was a good trip.  I was the only guy and there were 5 girls including my friend who is getting married.  She really wanted me to go; it wasn’t weird for me at all.  When they were doing their own things at times I just simply went on a poker table.  I decided to bail on NY last minute, so I’m really happy that I decided on AC. 

If I stayed in town I would have wasted time and dwelled on not going to NY.  Time to just let that situation be.  Fuck that girl, and my brother will get my ring back.  I'm not going to be anyones "option" no matter how good looking they are or what kind of show they put on.  If I'm visiting NY and in town fine, if not whatever.  Instead of thinking about such BS I was hanging out with one of my better friends and got more focused on poker.

It was a fun weekend, but a little disappointing on the tables.  I’ll try to highlight some thoughts below:

1)  Limping in the small blind for $1? 

This weekend I played 200NL.  I played 4 hours Saturday and 6.5 hours Sunday live.  I noticed in certain situations you will have VERY passive live tables where there are a few limpers and the action comes to you in the small blind.  I often found myself dealt garbage and asking:

Call or Fold?

In this situation I ended up mixing my play randomly.  The main problem with FOLDING on such a table is it makes you look like a complete NIT.  It is often worth it to pay the $1 and not look like a total nit.  If you end up hitting a miracle fine; if not I would recommend getting the hell away from the hand with little investment.

Then again the problem with playing trash is you often get in trouble, even if you assure yourself you will not get invested with anything less than the nuts.  I clearly remember a scenario where I folded 3 5 off suit in the small blind (same scenario discussed above).  The flop came rainbow:

4, 6, 7

I remember thinking “oh of course.”  The only hand that could have defeated me if I entered was 5-8.  Who the hell would be playing 5-8?  Well it turns out one of the limpers did indeed have the 5-8.  Therefore, that $1 would have ended up costing me over $100.  I probably would have lost at least $150, maybe even the full $200 (which was the opponents stack size).  That would have been an extrmely difficult hand for me to get away from.  You have to assume the opponent would have committed almost as much even if he hit a set.

2)  Hammered by a flush draw.

Within the first hour during my Sunday session I lost a $450 pot losing to a flush draw.  I top paired the flop with a top pair queen, ace kicker.  There was a Queen of hearts, a 6 of diamonds, and 7 of diamonds on the board.  I correctly put some guy on the flush draw and re-raised $120 more all in.  One opponent called with top pair queen, king kicker.  The second dumbass basically committed his life on the flush draw.  Of course he turned the 3^rd diamond with his K 6 suited.  I wasn’t as angry as you would have thought.   I remember thinking to myself “ok whatever, congrats idiot well done”.  I took the bad beat very well.  If I could have dodged that one suck-out I would have been up a good amount on the short trip.

3)  An interesting aggressive player.

I ran into a player the first night that was incredibly aggressive.  He wasn’t just a random either; after I talked to him I knew he was a regular.  He would basically open a $10 raise pre-flop about 80% of the time (5x the big blind).  His aggression was overwhelming.  However, many players didn’t notice that he was never making loose CALLS; he was always the aggressor trying to take control.  And usually he did.  And when he actually did hit something this guy would get paid huge.  I was very curious to know what this guy was up or down overall (not just on the one session, but his cash career during the last few months).  I was card dead about 4 hours on Saturday, but later I realized his strategy was affecting my win rate.  He often suffocated my odds and made calling with low-pockets almost non-profitable.  His style forced the few good players out often, and he made the bad players THAT MUCH WORSE.  The bad players were taken completely out of their element as their already non-existent discipline declined at an accelerated rate.

I knew the guy must have taken swings like crazy.  He was so carefree about it though, nothing bothered him.  But I had a feeling that his up swings were entirely worth it.  Also his style is FUN.  I saw him stuck about $400 when he first sat down.  He made that up pretty quickly when he came back a couple hours later.  Also I saw him Sunday in the same room on a different table and he had a MONSTER stack.  I should have got his contact information to talk to this fellow, very interesting stuff.  I remember him telling me that he was entering a huge $3500 buy in tournament in AC at the end of the month.  It’s good to see different styles that are working for regulars.  I think his style would be incredible in most tournaments.

4)  Felt bad for a chronic loser.

Sunday I played with an older guy for a few hours.  He was probably stuck at least $700 by the time he left.  He had a cane and walked with a noticeable limp.  He was probably 40s or 50s.  It was tough for me to determine his age.  He could have been mid 40s, but aged really badly.  Or he could have been early 60’s.  Hell if I knew.  However, I did know that he was NOT having fun losing, or taking it in stride.  After he busted for the third time and left I was talking to seat 6 to my immediate right.  Seat 6 mentioned that: “The guy who just left always loses a bunch of money.  He must live around here.  I play in this casino about 2 to 3 times a month, and he always seems to end up on my table.” 

I couldn’t help feeling bad for the guy who just left.  There was just something about the way he carried himself that made me feel bad for him.  You see a lot of people like this in Atlantic City.  I even used to go up to AC alone and play every now and then.  I even thought about moving to Atlantic City about a year ago (what a terrible decision that would have been).  After visiting alone a few times I realized that taking money from certain people is something I might struggle with and think about a lot (assuming I’m in fact skilled and disciplined enough to make a living and support myself of course).

This was a factor that helped drive me away from moving to Atlantic City.  My profession would have forced me to make the most from very bad players.   Well what if those players are sick gamblers and they really can’t afford to lose the money?  Would I be ok waking up every day and looking myself in the mirror if I deep down knew that my sole existence revolved around out skilling these people for their money?

Then again they could always get lucky sure, and they often DO GET LUCKY.  Besides, if I wasn’t sitting there fighting for their money someone else would be.  My presence at the same table is inconsequential in the overall scheme of things.  They are going to play and lose whether I’m at the table or not.

Then again this doesn’t necessarily give me the moral right to justify participation in such a vicious cycle, especially as a career choice.  The facts will never truly give me the right to profit and exploit from such a vicious cycle.  However, I have now learned that the corporate cycle is much more vicious then out skilling a sick gambler on a 200NL table.  Oh corporate takes money from less fortunate people, it would be foolish to not recognize that.  In comparison corporate is far “more evil”.  I may question the morals of the path I am planning to take, but the thought process that "I would be doing more good" in corporate is laughable to me.

But it still doesn’t completely justify everything.

I guess it’s either work as a minion for the machine, or become my own small time crook.  I’d rather choose the small time crook for now.  When I sat down to write this post I didn’t intent to dig into the philosophical questions discussed above.  But I assure you if I ever become successful enough playing poker full-time to support myself you will be hearing about those issues from me again.  First thing is first though; personal survival.

5)  Why are there so many attractive girls out at night in Atlantic City?  Where are they coming from?

When I went out Saturday night I was amazed at the number of stunningly attractive girls out at the clubs in AC.  There are so many sketchy people in the city, but there are some DAMN good-looking girls out at night.  I guess they come from all over: D.C, Philly, and N.Y.  I talked to two girls who were from Brooklyn which was interesting.

6)  An attractive girl fucks up my plans

So I set a limit to leave the table Sunday at 5:30 p.m.  Around 5:20 this really cute girl begins circling around the tables amongst the filth of the Tropicana of all places.  It looks like she is looking for a seat to play poker!  Of course she ends up sitting to my IMMEDIATE FUCKING LEFT.   So obviously I stayed past my previously set leaving time of 5:30 p.m.  I had to at least talk to her.  I mean this NEVER happens; EVER!  A really hot girl comes in, circles around, and sits right next to you on a poker table?  WTF?  I had to at least make sure this wasn’t a dream and say something to her.

Around 5:50 I 3-bet $30 pre-flop with AK with the intent of isolating a fundamentally terrible player.  He thought for a few seconds and then pushed all in.  It cost me about $75 more to call his all in.  I analyzed the situation and then made the call.  He showed 66.  The standard pattern emerged: 

FLOP BLANK, TURN BLANK, RIVER BLANK!

Based on the opponent I thought there was too good a chance that he could be dominated.  Based on his range he could have easily made that play with AQ- A10.  At the worst case scenario I figured I was at least a coin flip.  I assigned him possible hand holdings something like:  AQ- A10 (40% chance), 22-QQ (45% chance), absolute dog-shit (10%), KK-AA (5%)

The odds weren’t terrible either; I was getting better than 2 to 1 on the call.  This was certainly not an instant-call situation, especially on a 1-2 NL table.  Remember with $80 (the amount I called) you could in theory sit there and see more than 225 hands.  I was leaving within the next time or two around so that also factored into my decision.  I figured that may have been the best live poker situation I have to win a $200 pot in maybe a few months, and if I lose I’m still up $50 on the day.  The most important factor was still how bad the player was and the range I assigned him.  Yet, if my living expenses depended on that $200 pot I may have folded.  That could be a bad thing.  I suppose it’s always correct to trust my analysis and go with the decision that it is profitable to call based on the situation.  It just didn’t work out; I was fine with the play I made.  Cheers to another pot that would have made the trip quite different.

As for the girl she said she was from Brooklyn and was leaving later that night.  She seemed very quiet or not into talking that much, so I didn’t push it.  I also wasn’t in the most confident of moods.  I partied hard the night before, hadn’t showered, or shaved that clean.  I was wearing a button-down I wore from the night before.  I did however have a pretty cool unique hat on, but I mean that’s about it.

After I went to the cage and cashed out I looked back over at the table.  There was eye contact with the girl for at least 5 seconds.  She could have randomly looked over and happened to see me, but whatever.  What the fuck can you do?  I set up a weekend situation where it seemed impossible for a girl to screw with me in anyway and one STILL SMASHES ME.  As soon as she sat down I should have just handed her a $100 bill and left.

I deserved to lose that last pot.....

Girls destroy me........

-bag