Updates (8/5/2011)

I haven’t been posting a lot I know.  I go through bad stretches where I don’t feel like posting as much.  It’s been an uneventful week.  July was terrible.  I won 4 buy-ins for the entire month.  Actually enough to pay rent and cover living expenses, but this was obviously not the result I had in mind.

Looking at my last 10 sessions (38.5 hours), +$905.  Six of the sessions I finished with profit, one was break-even, three were losses.  The main problem with this stretch was there wasn’t a single session where things really went well for me.  The most I won during any of the past 10 sessions was a buy-in.  A large percentage of my winnings seems to come from that odd day where I win 2-3 buy-ins. 

My typical pattern during the last 40 hours was:

A)  Table select.  Continue to table select, while being baffled at the amount of nut-peddling nits now infesting much of the 2-5 games.

B)  Finally find a really good game around 2 a.m.

C)  Sit there card and situation dead during the most profitable game for 3-4 hours.  Meanwhile, any other regular gets clubbed with the deck as fish deposit money into their bankrolls holding any two cards.

D)  Continue folding 94o.

E)  Get up and leave around 6 a.m completely mind-fucked.  Finish around break even or a slight loss.

I know I sound like a whiney loser here.  But yeah that is my last 40 hours of poker, what else can I say?  I don’t think like this while I’m playing, I can usually hold all of the negativity in check.  But after I leave the table and think about things it all just comes pouring out sometimes, and that’s what you hear above.

I try to keep in mind what other regulars would have lost during the same stretch, or the average player for that matter.  That helps a little.  Knowing I really couldn’t do much during that stretch, but usually manage to steal out a slight profit or break even.

I have a big Friday and Saturday ahead of me.  I’ll do my best to stay mistake free and remain in emotional control, no matter what happens.  I want to play 4 or 5 out of the next six days (around 8 hours minimum per day).  I’m going on vacation August 13^th- August 20^th, so I’m sort of busting my ass.  I’ll be able to play some while on vacation.  But probably only 2 or 3 nights.  So I’m missing two full weekends with this trip.  Very +EV I know!  I’m running like shit so let’s take off two weekends in August! 

I realize a lot of my profits come in small waves.  When that next wave will come I have no idea, it could be a day, it could be a month.  But I know it will come eventually.  The only way I can get there faster is the keep up my volume and stay focused.  In a way I feel like a side goal is to just somehow manage to survive until the next heater.  I know many wouldn’t be able to survive during the same stretch.  And by “survive” I mean still be profitable no matter how bad you run, no matter how card/situation dead you are each night.

I'll be back to post about my successes or failures before I leave country for a week!