I haven’t been posting a lot I know. I go through bad stretches where I don’t feel like posting as much. It’s been an uneventful week. July was terrible. I won 4 buy-ins for the entire month. Actually enough to pay rent and cover living expenses, but this was obviously not the result I had in mind.
Looking at my last 10 sessions (38.5 hours), +$905. Six of the sessions I finished with profit, one was break-even, three were losses. The main problem with this stretch was there wasn’t a single session where things really went well for me. The most I won during any of the past 10 sessions was a buy-in. A large percentage of my winnings seems to come from that odd day where I win 2-3 buy-ins.
My typical pattern during the last 40 hours was:
A) Table select. Continue to table select, while being baffled at the amount of nut-peddling nits now infesting much of the 2-5 games.
B) Finally find a really good game around 2 a.m.
C) Sit there card and situation dead during the most profitable game for 3-4 hours. Meanwhile, any other regular gets clubbed with the deck as fish deposit money into their bankrolls holding any two cards.
D) Continue folding 94o.
E) Get up and leave around 6 a.m completely mind-fucked. Finish around break even or a slight loss.
I know I sound like a whiney loser here. But yeah that is my last 40 hours of poker, what else can I say? I don’t think like this while I’m playing, I can usually hold all of the negativity in check. But after I leave the table and think about things it all just comes pouring out sometimes, and that’s what you hear above.
I try to keep in mind what other regulars would have lost during the same stretch, or the average player for that matter. That helps a little. Knowing I really couldn’t do much during that stretch, but usually manage to steal out a slight profit or break even.
I have a big Friday and Saturday ahead of me. I’ll do my best to stay mistake free and remain in emotional control, no matter what happens. I want to play 4 or 5 out of the next six days (around 8 hours minimum per day). I’m going on vacation August 13th- August 20th, so I’m sort of busting my ass. I’ll be able to play some while on vacation. But probably only 2 or 3 nights. So I’m missing two full weekends with this trip. Very +EV I know! I’m running like shit so let’s take off two weekends in August!
I realize a lot of my profits come in small waves. When that next wave will come I have no idea, it could be a day, it could be a month. But I know it will come eventually. The only way I can get there faster is the keep up my volume and stay focused. In a way I feel like a side goal is to just somehow manage to survive until the next heater. I know many wouldn’t be able to survive during the same stretch. And by “survive” I mean still be profitable no matter how bad you run, no matter how card/situation dead you are each night.
I'll be back to post about my successes or failures before I leave country for a week!