Every Session Is the Worst Session of My life (6.18.2010)
Friday, June 18, 2010 at 11:55AM As you may have drawn from the title: nothing is really changing for me on the virtual tables. I crammed in a 4 hour session Tuesday and dropped $140, running -$120 in EV. Then last night I played 5 hours and ended up down -$140. I actually felt happy to only be down 140, I really ran terribly. It’s hard to comprehend losing the amount of 80%+ equity situations that I have in the past few months. It’s absolutely disgusting. There is no reason that any normal person should end up with a net dollar loss after playing the session that I did last night.
I got myself in the right situations and my stats were fine, just kept getting hammered by unthinkable bullshit. I do still have a 3-bet leak, but I can’t for the life of my figure out how to plug it. But yeah it’s tough to open up your game and jam 20 more spots per thousand hands when you are bleeding, when you run -EV every session, when you lose every two outer, when you lose every suck-out, when you finally get the courage to aggressively JAM a range and the luck-box catches the top 5% of his range EVERY FUCKING TIME. If you can’t hold KK over QQ all in pre how the hell are you going to jam with TT or AJ in a slightly EV spot and hold? I’d love to filter out just how many two-outers I have lost vs. won in the past two months once the money is all in. I’m sure HEM has a report to show these sort of numbers, but I doubt I will actually dig around and generate the report. What is the point of dwelling on the past?
Anyways my mind-set and philosophy is part of my problem right now with the 3-bet leak. I feel I can still win by not pushing in the extra 10-20 spots per 1,000 hands, but not when I lose every single huge all in situation with dominating equity. I still think it’s better to be conservative when you’re in a losing streak. Don’t try to do too much, but always be looking for spots to expand. When expanding my 3-bet pre-flop pushes it needs to be 100% based on ranges. It’s tough because I don’t have a large hand database on many of the casual players, so it often feels more of a border-line push than it actually is. Also the casual is going to call more, but you will be in a lot of 55-65% equity situations, which has huge variance. The main strength of the 3-bet shove pre-flop is it FOLDS OUT HANDS, that is its purpose. I definitely need to be 3-betting regulars as much (based on their ranges from certain positions) because they fold a lot. They are less likely to call of 17BB with a marginal hand.
Anyways I don’t have my log with me at work, but these three hands sum up last night’s session:
AT < T4s all in on the flop. -$80. My top three of a kind loses to an unthinkable runner runner flush.
Board is Th Th 3s
I don’t even remember the specific turn and river cards. I shoved him $35 all in on the flop after he re-raised me and he instantly called. The pot was already big and I didn’t want to get tricky here, especially with the flush draw showing. His range was very bad. I thought he was likely to be holding trips dominated with a weaker kicker, a flush draw, a poorly played over-pair, a mid pair, or a set of threes. I just remember the turn was spade, and so was the river. I was 80% equity to win even on the turn. And its massive dominating spots like these where I never hold, and this is why I don’t show profit.
KK < QQ all in preflop. - $60
TURN QUEEN. This is very quickly turning into my signature move. Get all in pre-flop with KK AND LOSE TO A BITCH MOTHER FUCKING QUEEN. This nightmare scenario just keeps occurring, it’s like a sick joke.
So if I won those two pots I’m even for the session.
KK < AK, QQ all in preflop. -$80
The standard idiot-box queen on the flop. So basically if I’m holding KK and there’s a queen anywhere on the board I INSTANTLY LOSE. LOL @ my luck with KK vs QQ. It’s just so depressing.
The 3 way with KK wasn’t even that bad. There were two other two outers I lost all in preflop. Also at least three other 70% equity situations lost. So that’s my session yeah whatever.
Summary
I’ve already put in 9 hours during the week so that should take some pressure off me to play during the weekend. I expect to put in at least 20 hours this weekend, but we will see. The only plus is I’ve already cleared 2k VPPs this week, which brings me to 84,000 VPPS (84%). I just have to stay focused and keep making the right decisions. I’m brain-dead at work right now and not in a great mood. I’ll be sure to throw in some more miserable updates from the weekend. I’m sure I’ll continue losing 4 out of every 5 80% equity situations, I’d expect nothing less.
Schedule Today/Tonight
A) Suffer through the rest of my day job like a zombie for four hours.
B) Buy at least two 5-hour energies.
C) Hell on earth commute: 1 hour.
D) Destroy a nap when I get home: 3-4 hours.
E) Hopefully get in a groove and play at least 6 hours tonight.
F) Wake up and force myself to work out in 95 degree weather.
G) Repeat only with more poker.
Reader Comments (2)
Aww... :( Good luck tonight.
All I can say is..I know how you feel. I ran 90 buyins below expected in allins, ~200k hands (when I did my last rake race). I wasn't too happy ;)
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About to start up here. Thanks for the luck (Never though I'd say this, but I sure as hell need it). And kittens lols they are A++ Yeah I think most players have no idea the living hell that variance can really be. Most people just run somewhat normal in hundreds of thousands of hands.