Live Hell and Updates (4/15/2013)
Monday, April 15, 2013 at 4:08PM It’s really hard to write about things right now, so I just haven’t been doing it, but wanted to provide some updates for anyone who still follows this blog. The thought of even living what I go through weekly ONE TIME is already way too much to handle, much less writing about it a second time, and then reliving it a third time proof-reading.
Every day I decide to not play online is another day I’m stuck in this never ending hell that is live poker with no way out. So that’s a decent motivation to grind online. But I still don’t have enough time in a given week to transition.
For March 2013 I played 111 hours live and won just under 4k. I also put in 72 hours online, and won $45. I’m currently 1-3 tabling 25NL right now. I'm trying to do things right with online and take it slow this time around. As in just keeping the tables way down and focusing on improving. I’m somewhat happy with my coaching set-up and progress, I just don’t know if the opportunity cost is worth it. It’s a shit load of time and work that might go wasted if things don’t work out long-term. One comparitive advantage I have online is a coach who is absolutely crushing it at a higher stakes, so if I stick with him and work really hard I might have a chance. Another comparitive advantage I have online is the money means absolutely nothing to me. I lose in one pot playing live my entire online bankroll.
As for live, I’m in a small down-swing right now. I’m running into set-up hands once per session, crazy shit going wrong that normally happens once a month maybe, or for most live regulars never. Last night capped it off as I played 10 hours to win +$12 (yes twelve fucking dollars) in one of the best games I’ve seen in a month. The highlight of the night was running JJ into QQ on a 6 5 6 Q J board against a huge fish check calling 3 streets (who flatted my iso from the blinds pre), there’s $1600 I’ll never see again. Obviously got it in on the river. The night before against a tournament retard (sorry but I literally hated this idiot I wish him nothing but the worst, seriously fuck him) opening around 40% from MP I flat with AK, flop comes A 8 7… get in $500 effective, somehow lose to pocket aces. There goes the month pretty much. When I lost the JJ < QQ hand I didn’t even flinch, in the past it would have bothered me a lot more. All I remember is someone next to me saying “you need blah blah.” I don't remember the entire sentance just 'you need something'. And I swiftly replied “I need to go get a gun so I can shoot myself”. After that I just kept playing as normal. The next 6 hours were spent just grinding back what I already lost on one horrific set up mind-fuck hand like usual. Now I just expect to make the correct play and lose every day. I pretty much live up to that expectation.
I can sit in some of the softest games in the world and still find a way to lose, it’s becoming almost impressive…
I’m down -$1300 in 70 hours and it’s halfway through the month. The good news is I’ve been through this a million times before and 90% of the player pool in my exact same spot would already be down 4k riding a career 2/5 downswing and planning to shoot themselves. I’m more worried about not being able to put the time I want online. I’m running so bad live that I have to pretty commit to playing all live until I start running somewhat normal.
There’s a ton going on with poker right now and every day is a fight. I’m not going to talk about where I’ve specifically been playing, but I’ve been traveling around to play. I will say in my mind I’m 100% done with playing in Atlantic City. I’m just trying to make the best out of a bad situation until my lease expires in October. I'm hoping by the end of the lease I'm playing at least 50% online (as in making at least 1k per month average) and have things 100% planned out on where I'm going to move to.
The next weeks for me should be something like travel/play, online day, travel/play, online/day, break-down off day from exhaustion, live in hell AC day, travel/play, online day, repeat. I actually can’t get set on a normal schedule, I haven’t figured out how to balance it all yet.
Cheers all, hoping to start updating weekly again.
Reader Comments (2)
Ride it out mate, it will turn soon!
Update??