Solid Thursday and Updates (2/17/2012)

I logged a solid Thursday session tonight winning close to $1200 in 7 hours.  It ended a brutal 58 hour break even stretch that spanned from 2/3 (Friday) - 2/15 (Wednesday).  I played in a low key casino that barely got a 2/5 game running.  I enjoyed myself, more comfortable environment.  The game was not that great most of the time, but I ran well in a few decent spots.  I'd give the action a 3 out of 5 combined. 

Up over 3k on the month, so I have a good chance of hitting 4k.  The 4k mark is important because it's what I want to be averaging monthly at this point.

I keep flip-flopping on the China trip.  One day I really want to do it, the next day the cons seem to out-weigh the pros.  This makes sense because I question if I'm Bipolar sometimes.  Right now I'm leaning towards NO for a few reasons:

1)  I'm coming off my best live poker month.  So?  Well why leave and fuck shit up?  I seem to be doing very well around here at the moment and I'm comfortable.  Maybe I should stick around while things are going good.  Why the hell am I going to leave during one of my best stretches? 

2)  3k in expenses for one trip is a fuck-load.  Yeah I could afford it, but there is a lot I could do with that money.  I could put it towards a new car.  Or I could break the money up and probably take 3 different trips around the U.S at different times during the next few months. 

3)  I've researched some of the action in Macau.  It seems the comparable 2/5 games aren't worth traveling around the world for.  The comparable 5/10 games would probably be worth it.

PROBLEM:  I'm NOT ACTUALLY READY to go to 5/10.  Why?  I don't trust myself to be emotionally ready to lose 2k a night for THREE consecutive nights (yes a down-swing can happen).  I'm just now reaching a point where I'm truly emotionally stable when I swing 1k in a night.  Does it make me a bankroll nit because I'm grinding 2/5 with over 70 buy-ins? 

YES!

...but I really don't care.  I feel the one thing that can take me out of climbing the poker ladder is poor bankroll management.  I'd rather have a 5x bigger bankroll than the average pro.  I also feel there are spots I can still improve at 2/5.  I'm just starting to frequently cross into LAG territory to run over weak games.  Also, I don't like the concept of "shot-taking".  I think it is an over-used and dangerous term.  For example when I take a "shot" at 5/10 I want to have an 80% chance of STAYING there.  I don't see the point of dropping 6 buy-ins before dropping back down in a self defeated depression.

Therefore, I don't feel I should incur a 3k expense and fly across the world to grind 2/5 for 2 weeks.  If it was 5/10 then maybe.  Without the trip I could run average around here and push towards an 80 buy-in milestone mark while slipping in a couple night vacation to NYC.

4)  The flight is 13 hours one-way.

WHAT THEFUCKINGFUCK

However, there would be a few pros.  I just have to realize I would need to do this trip for an experience type thing.  Even if I run average out there I'm still probably going to lose over 1k.  But 1k for a trip to China isn't all that bad.  

Leaning towards staying around here for sure!

-bag