Bad Wednesday (5/11/2011)

This week has been tough.  Logged a nice win Sunday, and then I caught a cold.  Just started to feel better the last two days.  Tuesday up about a buy-in.  Then it all goes to hell tonight.  First 3 hours I dropped -$260.  Then I lose - $850 in 1 hour at the next casino.

The first buy-in lost during that hour: I raise $50 preflop with QQ from the button, 3 callers (gee anyone else want to play??).

FLOP:  Td Jh 3s

Everyone checks around to me and I bet $140.  2^nd to act shoves all in.  Tough spot but it’s now about $200 more to win a $1000 pot.  I figured I only needed 25% to break even by calling, I’m only really screwed if he has a set.  I thought I had much more then 25% equity against this villain here.  This guy was very loose pre-flop.  After some thought I confidently called.  So it’s all in on the flop.

TURN 9

(He turns QKo of course.  I just can’t dodge a fucking open ended straight draw this month.  It has been the bane of my existence.)

River whatever

I remember feeling relived I made the correct play even though I just lost an enormous pot.  So I stack up to $500 and a few minutes later I get dealt AQo from the button.  Psycho drunk opens $15, he is basically making this raise blind at this point.  I 3-bet to $45.  3 callers, but the drunk folds.

FLOP T 3 3

Everyone checks around to me.  I really don’t think I can steal this here so I check back and basically give up.  I don’t think any pair is folding and these stations are never folding a pair.  So I’d rather not piss away 30 big blinds stabbing in this spot.  Might as well take a free card and try to pick up some equity.

TURN Q

Ok there’s some equity.  Completely dry board, not even a flush draw.  Same QKo guy donk bets $25.  I make it $125, he calls heads up.

TURN 9

Changes absolutely nothing in my mind.  He donk bets $150 on the river and I call preparing for total horseshit.

The dude turns over J8o.  So he gets there on the gut-shot and drags the $700 pot.  So one luck-box ruins my week in the span of one hour.  This was the most pissed I’ve been on a live table.  I lost it.

“You’ve got to be fucking kidding me man”

I then grab the remaining $170ish stack and instantly leave the table.  I’ve never got up and left after a hand like that before.  I just could not take it anymore.

After I drove home (like 3 minutes away), and figured I might come back after I cool off some.

Now I’ve decided I just can’t take it anymore tonight.  The -$800 in the last one hour was really bad and I decided to just cool my head and take off tonight.  I’ve only played 10 hours this week, but I’ve been sick.  This weekend is also going to be low volume because friends are visiting.  But fuck it I’m not going to force the play right now.  It hasn’t been my month so far.  I won $1900 Sunday, other than that I’m down -$250 for the month so far.

I don’t like how I lost my cool on that last hand.  But it happened and it’s over with, that’s just me.  I’m not a robot even though I can pretend to be for many weeks, sometimes even a month.  But I’m going to flip my shit every once in a while, that’s how I am.  I’ve made it a priority to work on my emotions, but sometimes it just slips out.  I’m not proud of tonight, especially the last hand.  At least I played mistake free.  I was even contempt when I lost the QQ hand.  There was just something about the same guy hitting the gut-shot 5 minutes later that made me fucking lose it.  So my targets were not met tonight.  I played mistake free but lost it emotionally.

For me to erupt like that, to actually stand up and leave was pretty bizarre.  However it was the right time to leave.  For some reason I had only brought around $1300 in my wallet tonight, and I couldn’t even chip up to a full buy in after the gut-shot suck out.  So be it.  The month of the fish continues I guess.  I’m not playing again tonight I’ve decided for sure.  I earned a time out.  I guess it wasn’t that bad.  I said one line and left immediately.  Better than heaving the chips in his face and getting banned from the highest traffic casino in the city I suppose.

I’m very down right now, but I will regroup and play tomorrow.  I think playing live poker full time will make me legally insane.  I wish I could still play online half the week.  I’m not sure I like the direction of playing all live full time.  It’s all just too small of a sample size.  I think you can usually make much more per hand live, and I do like playing live (except tonight), but every sane live player has to wonder at some point if they can overcome the small sample size problem.  Unless they just run like God a lot, which a most regulars do.   But eventually they have to hit a downswing and might kill themselves at that point, since they have never experienced an actual downswing.

I really am a head-case.  So worked up over what?  Down a buy-in this week, but I’ve played mistake free.  Not even down a full buy-in on the month, get your shit together baglife.  Going into Sunday (5/8) I was down over 3 buy-ins on the month.

I'm getting my shit together and coming back tomorrow.  Bruuuuuuuuuuuutal night.

-bag

Comments

[Lucypher]

Losing to people that are playing poorly and making ridiculous calls (pre and post flop) is very frustrating. I agree. Just remember, you are a professional.
It is only a matter of time until you get his money if you can keep playing against those opponents long enough and stay cool. He can't run that hot for very long.
Anyway, leaving was the best move at that point. You recognized you were tilted and prevented any further losses. Shake it off. You will be fine. Keep grinding and good luck.

[baglife]

Lucypher,

Thanks. The 2 buy-ins in an hour wasn't something I've experienced yet. Usually doesn't happen. I can only stay focused and keep grinding.

-bag