Mostly Girl(s) and Poker (1/6/2011)

Girl:

It’s 3:30 a.m.  I just got back from a date, it’s too late to start a session, but too early to go to bed.  The date went really well.  I happened to go out to a club Saturday and I hit it off with a girl I met immediately.  Instantaneous strong connection, not just any girl.  She is incredibly attractive, and seems amazing.  It’s been texts or calls every day since we met, and she stayed over past 3:00 a.m tonight.  It seemed like she really wanted to sleep over, but I mean it’s a second date?  She feel asleep a few hours in my bed with me, lost track of time, and reluctantly decided to leave.  She probably didn’t want me to think she was easy or something? (ridiculous I know).  Or maybe she didn't want to jump the gun on things becuse yeah we haven't known each-other long, I guess it would be kind of odd to sleep over a dudes house that you've known a week.  Or maybe she just wanted to get the fuck out of my house, but decided to act like it was killing her to leave! 

Who cares anyways.  Whatever she has to do.  As for the not rushing into things, I would never even hint at pressuring someone into doing something they’re uncomfortable with.  I’ve dated a girl for 3 months+ without having sex before, so she has no idea lol.  Oh I can play that game.  I have more self control then any girl I’ve ever dated, that’s for sure.  Why?  Because I trained myself to be able to survive without sex for extended periods of time.  Most people can't do this.  In my book pretty much any really attractive girl has never come close to this sort of level of self control.  Why?

An attractive girl always has sex readily available at any waking moment, where the male does not.

It's incredibly easy for the attractive girl to have sex whenever, so why not take it every once in a while?  It's enjoyable what the hell right?  I don't fault them getting laid a lot, we would probably all take it.  I'm just stating logic here.  Keep in mind the really hot girl is getting hit on 50 times a week without doing anything.  If you got hit on by 50 girls per week how long do you really think you could possibly go without having sex?  One of them is going to slip the fuck through right?  And this girl I've been seeing is REALLY attractive (I'm damn picky), so I know what I'm getting into.  Just saying, even a really attractive guy at least has to work for sex.  There are plenty of attractive guys that don't get laid much, but girls?  Yeah right.  bahaha ok anyways.....  I have more self control probably we get it ok great job baglife.

And this is something I really did not see coming living out here. 

Is this where my life gets ruined?

This usually happens.  You’re completely contempt not even looking to meet anyone, and then it just happens out of nowhere.  They are attracted to you being carefree and happy.  BOOM it slams you out of nowhere.  They generally stick with you until your carefree/happy spirit is ruined and then move on to suck the life out of another host.  Wow am I bitter much lol?  Yeah I've had a rough past relationship.  Please read this paragraph at a joke, but this sort of logic lingers somewhere in the back of my mind.  It's just hard to break.  Even with this new girl I'd 100% give her a full chance and not judge on the past, just rambling now....

Anyways, I really like this girl.  100% dating material (between this blog and myself), man I haven’t said that in a while.  I mean I thought I would just grind out in the shadows like a vampire a year and then take it from there.  I wasn’t going out of my way to try to meet someone, I honestly didn’t account for that variable to enter my life.  I’m not really sure how a relationship would work out.  I told her I play for a living, and have a crazy schedule, but she definitely doesn’t fully understand it (which is fine, as long as it’s not a moral issue).  Hell, I don't understand the 9-5 thing, and I've been there and tried it for 3 years.  So we are on the same page with not understanding.  Anyways, I can mix my schedule around and definitely take off Wednesday and another random day per week, but yeah we will see.   She’s worth doing whatever it takes to make it work, if she happens to keep wanting to see me that is lol.  Though, I get a really strong vibe that we both feel the same way (view the other as dating material and want something at least semi-serious), I can tell.  Though there's a 5-10% chance I'm wrong or some random ex comes back into her life or something stupid.

My life was an impossible balance with corporate and a relationship.  It was impossible balance with poker and corporate.  And with corporate, poker, and a relationship it was absolute hell on earth.  It's only tolerable with 2 out of the 3.  But if I'm focusing on just one I'm maximizing the one variable to it's fullest potential.  The past 3 months it's been all poker.  But I don't have an excuse from running from a girl I like this much, I have to give it a shot.  Poker and a relationship is possible right?  If I really want this girl I have to make room for poker and a relationship?  It's not like I go out much out here anyways.  I can definitely make time for her and would want to.  

Poker:

I logged 16 hours online during Monday and Tuesday.  I really feel like I’m making progress. The last 5 hours of Tuesday’s session I comfortably 10 tabled with confidence.  I finished the 5 hour stretch just over break even, but the comfort was really there.  Going forward I want to keep it as close to 10 tables as possible.  I really have to start making a push online.  4-6 tables at once is sort of pointless.  If I’m having a bad stretch I can always drop an hour or two.  But with the bankroll I want to keep pushing.  I’m not going to rush into anything, but yes I’m very much going to be pushing myself during the next few weeks.

Also about to kick off my live stretch of the week.  Right now I’m on the verge of a nice milestone which is +$6000 profit on 1-2 tables.  I set my move up to 2-5 level at +$6000 profit, so once I clear $220 more I can move up with my goals reached.  It’s been really hard to not enter 2-5 games during the past month, the burn has really been there.

So that’s it.  I guess it’s back to the grind tomorrow live.  I’m not sure what’s going to happen with uh let’s call her Jessica lol.  I want to see her as much as possible right now, but I obviously have to keep grinding live.  I think it may come down to a point where it’s like “ok what two nights do you want to hang out during the upcoming week?”  Then I can just plan my schedule accordingly.  We just met and I really like her so I may be willing to ditch cut a session sometime between Thursday-Saturday this week.

-bag