I've been taking a bit of break, enjoying the holidays with family and friends.
I busted my ass for most of December and finished down, which was tough to swallow. Instead of breaking early for Christmas I played until Christmas Eve. During the last 3 nights I played in a casino in a different state. During the 3 nights I pretty much recovered my December loss, so break even right now.
I haven't decided if I'm going to take a vacation for NYE, or stay around AC, go out two nights, and resume grinding. I feel like I need a break. My motivation really isn't as strong at this time. I thought taking off over 5 nights would help, but it hasn't particularly.
Keeping my confidence level high is important right now. It's on to the second year as a pro. The first year wasn't amazing, but in a way I "did it". I made enough profit to cover all my living expenses and added to my bankroll. I also adapted and survived despite some pretty horrific obstacles (black Friday, downswings, girl, etc).
I really do have a lot to be proud of, but I'm not. I'll just never be satisfied until I at least get a bankroll together to make at push at 5/10. Unless online comes back in some form, thats a different story. I'm not sure exactly what my problem is right now, maybe just in a bad mood. Maybe I just need to run good. Maybe I just need a change of pace....
-bag