Right now I'm a professional poker player who can't win money playing poker. Doesn't seem to matter what I do.
I tried mixing it up today and started play earlier. I ended up playing 9.5 hours to lose -$325. I was up until the last hand where I lost a 1.2k pot with a top set of jacks against a flopped flush.
FLOP Jc 5c 3c
I lead 65 into 100, 5 way. A bad drunk casual player then made it 165 total. After that I decided to shove over the top. He instantly called with 9c Tc, of course it held up.
I can't really beat myself up over a hand like that. Yeah it sucks getting it in bad, but folding is a disaster if I'm even good 10% of the time on the flop. The guy had a timer over his head, I just don't see how I could get away from that. I really did think he had a flush, but it's about a range of hands. I did think he was capable of making that play with Ac x a percentage of the time, or even a lower set. The times he shows up with Ac,x or a lower set just make folding pretty impossible for 100BBs. I mean I'm not a fucking magician here, ok ship it in, good job you win. Congrats I got my money in bad on a fucking mega cooler.
I've started off down -$230 in 16.5 hours this week. The problem is I've lost the three previous weeks. Down around 3 buy-ins on the month. I've been through worse stretches before, I have the ability to turn things around. I need to keep fighting and focus on one session at a time here. Yeah my life is not very fun right now.
-bag