Dating confusion.... that's a SHOCKER. I'm going to warn you there isn't a lot of poker in this post. It's my blog and I talk about my personal life as well. This is a rare post that will mostly be all about a dating situation.
Cutting to the chase I met two girls at the beach through a very good mutual friend. They are twins, 21 years old, blonde, cute, and starting senior year during their next semester. I'm going to make up two names here to protect the innocent: let's say Nicole and Jessica. Sunday they stayed after at my place at the beach after the rest of their friends left and hung out about 5-6 hours with me before they left. We spent most of the day just hanging out at the pool and relaxing. We got along really well. I thought they were both extremely sweet, down to earth, and respectful. Sweet, respectful, and down to earth usually can't be found in the same sentence with girls I end up going after. It got me thinking, why the hell am I not hanging out with/dating more girls like this? I got both of their numbers.
Anyways, I liked Nicole slightly more than Jessica. I thought she had a slightly better body and cutter face. I was physically a little more attracted to Nicole. I also thought she was more of a partier and would be able to keep up with me more in a good way. However, Jessica seemed a little nicer and I was more in touch with her goals somewhat more. She also seemed into me a little more. So after they left the beach for home I realized Nicole left her phone charger and something else at my place. She later contacted me and I assured her I would return her possessions. However, the last text I sent to her she didn't respond to me. Which was something like, "How are you, Did you guys make good time?" I basically just wanted to keep the conversation going and keep talking to her. But her not getting back to my last text on Sunday night gave me the sign that she wasn't all that interested.
So while I was hanging out with Jessica at the beach I asked her if she would be interesting in having a drink or two around home on Thursday to break up the work-week. She agreed and seemed very interested.
This entire week I debated whether or not to text Jessica to meet up, text Nicole, or text both. After some debate I decided that if I texted one to meet up I could not longer text the other girl. Because they are twins and very close. If I tried to get in touch and set something up with both I would be labeled a player and written off. Or worse case scenario I would be completely put in the friend boat by both girls, as they might think OH LET'S ALL MEET UP AND CHILL LIKE BEST FRIENDS! Not that it would be a horrible thing, I think they are both really sweet girls and I'd like to stay in touch. But honestly I would like to theoretically take one out and hook up with her. Well I guess in a perfect world I wouldn't mind taking them both out and hooking up with them both. However, this is real life, NOT A PORNO.
So anyways.........
I suddenly realized if anything this situation shows how fucking insane I really am. THEY ARE TWINS. Almost any other person would probably not be able to tell the difference between them. But I'm going to sit here and throw out the mad claim that Nicole is the better looking twin, and I like her that much more, EVEN KNOW Jessica seems more interested in me. Besides, I would be more attracted to Jessica as I took her out and got closer to her right? I don't know right?
So I decided to ignore how insane I really am. I texted Jessica on Wednesday and asked if she still wanted to meet up for drinks. She got back to me and said they were going out to another location after work, and I should come hang out with them for a bit. By then I figured she meant her sister and some work friends. So I was cool with this situation. I figured I should just play it by ear and maybe be able to tell if one of them was into me more while I was out. I could then theoretically try to set up a date alone with whoever seemed more interested.
So I met up with them earlier tonight after work. They had some friends with them and we all hung out about 3-4 hours. The first hour I actually thought maybe I was attracted to Jessica a little more, but the last 3 hours+ I definitely realized that I was indeed "IN LOVE" with Nicole more. Jessica was sweet and our conversations flowed fine. But whenever I talked to Nicole our senses of humor seemed to match more, and she always seemed to laugh in a good way. And Nicole is just more attractive to me, I'm not going to lie no matter how crazy that sounds.
During the time out a few of Jessica's friends, Jessica, and myself tentatively planned for a bar-crawl at a local town tomorrow night. Let's call the town Blowout-Ville, I don't know. A bar crawl simply means getting smashed by having one drink at each bar and checking out the town. They wanted me to show them around since they were very unfamiliar with Blowout-Ville. I agreed of course.
So the night ended and I am really no less confused in anyway. I told Jessica I would text her tomorrow and show them around Blowout-Ville. At the end of the night I gave Nicole her phone charger out of my car. I hugged her and she said "call us tommorow". I also went back and gave Jessica a hug. I have no god-damn clue.
It sounds ridiculous, but I still like Nicole more. It's more of a physical attraction, but I know I like her enough to take her on a date and have it perhaps develop into more. Meanwhile, Jessica is really sweet but I just don't see that raw animalistic SPARK there that I'm looking for. So now what? Do I text Nicole, Jessica or both tomorrow? I think Jessica is a little more into me, but she is just a shy girl. That is her nature, I would have to be more proactive and aggressive with her. But I'm not sure if it would be fair to set up a date with her and go after her if I actually like her twin sister more. Part of me says just be a fucking man here. Text Nicole from here on out and if she doesn't get back to you just say screw it? Even know I kinda already messed it up by only texting Jessica this week. Part of me says BE A BITCH, keep trying to stick with the surer thing by only contacting Jessica. She's a really good girl and maybe you could develop that extra spark as you get to know her more.
Right now I might be in the friend boat with both, I have no idea. I'm not even sure if I should set something up for tomorrow. I really like them, but I don't want to waste time. If I go out tomorrow I wont be able to put in any poker. Then I'll probably have to go to party on Saturday for 4th of July so there goes a lot of time I could be putting on the tables to go after Supernova status.
Let's go over some reasonable options:
A) Text Jessica (attracted to her less, but a safer bet) and set things up for tomorrow. Once you're out hit on Jessica and try to get things progressing further whenever you get a chance.
B) Text Jessica and set things up for tomorrow. Once you're out hit on NICOLE and try to get things progressing further whenever you get a chance. If it doesn't work out just shift to having a good time no worries.
C) Text Nicole and try to set things up for tomorrow. If she's unresponsive say SCREW it and don't go out. She did say "text us tomorrow". Also when out, HIT ON NICOLE WHENEVER YOU GET A CHANCE.
D) Text Jessica and set things up for tomorrow. Don't try to focus or over-hit on anyone. Just play the situation by ear have fun. If one of them shows stronger interest GO FOR IT.
E) Don't text anyone. If they get in touch with you that shows they're interested. If not don't waste your time. This move is somewhat foolish because it's suicide to leave it to the girl getting in touch with you. Then again, I wouldn't be wasting time. I could stay in and put the time towards my Supernova poker goals.
30 Minutes ago I was leaning towards option E because I just don't want to waste more time. This feels like a bit of a time trap situation. However, I really do love these girls, I think they are so cute and good hearted, it's just refreshing to me. I wouldn't mind showing them around town and having a good time. So yeah I would still really enjoy hanging out with them, even if I didn't end up dating either, even if I didn't hook up with either of them EVER. Maybe I should just focus on taking them out and having a good time. i think that is the logical approach. Don't worry about dating, hooking up, etc, etc, blah blah. If this leads to a friend boat so be it whatever. I would enjoy their friendship, and these are some cute friends to have. And cute friends have OTHER CUTE FRIENDS, this is how I met many girls I established relationships with in the past. Besides they are 21 years old, that's a little young anyways. We are in completely different stages of our lives. If I do decide to try to take one out I think I should just be a man and ask Nicole. If she says no so be it and move on, no big deal. I don't think it's right to pursue Jessica if I honestly say that I don't feel that SPARK (no matter how crazy that sounds). She's a really good girl and plenty of other people will feel that spark when hanging out with her. Why waste her time? Why waste my time? And this is where I separate from all of my other male friends. The common answer would be: HOOK UP WITH JESSICA YOU FUCKING IDIOT IT'S A SURE THING. HAVE FUN DO IT? HELLLO? I'LL DO IT FOR YOU??? ARE YOU KIDDING ME? And I counter: "But I don't want to date her? Why waste my time, why waste her time? I could be using that time to meet someone else that I want to be with long term. Besides wouldn't that be playing her by hooking up with Jessica? Leading her on? That's just not me. I'm done screwing around like that, I'm not in college anymore. I don't need the hook-up sex to make me a better person. I don't let sex control me anymore. It has in the past and it will never control me again"
So right now I'm leaning towards E. Stop being a bitch, set things up with Jessica, show them the town, don't expect anything from either girl, and have a great time. I've been in a mood the last few weeks to really go out and have a good time.
I need to quit my fucking job next Friday. Then I will be committing 30-40 hours per week to poker, while being able to do what I want in my free time. I won't have to choose between going out with cute girls and playing poker 10 hours on a Friday night. Fuck the stable corporate check, it's not important. You have the back-up plans and additional financing sources in place. GO FOR IT.
YOU CAN PLAY BREAK-EVEN POKER. LOL. It's feasible. Believe in yourself man, you're a solid player. You are at a point where you are aggressively attacking ranges and exploiting opponents, this is pretty advanced. Worst comes to worst we went over this, TROLL AC AND NIT THAT BITCH TOWN UP. You can still make as much as you did in corporate even with this option.
Good night all. Thanks to anyone who read and listened to all this bullshit. Not sure why I'm so confused with this situation. Any input would be much appreciated.